May 2012
53 posts
i’m going farming for a month on saturday!!! won’t have a phone, but will have occasional internet access. woooo gonna go play with bees and chickens/be exhausted all the time in beautiful big sur
ahhhhhh i have to make an immediate decision about going to work on a farm for a month literally today even tho one of my favorite people is getting into town and i love everybody in oakland so much. both options are simultaneously great and terrible for my mental health
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh decisions are impossible im just gonna hold my breath until i die
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Emma dropped the paper. Her first impression was of a weak feeling in her stomach and in her knees; then of blind guilt, of unreality, of coldness, of fear; then she wished that it were already the next day. Immediately afterward she realized that that wish was futile because the death of her father was the only thing that had happened in the world, and it would go on happening endlessly. She...
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officialkylieminoguedragqueen:
imagine me walking down the street to be my baby by wonder girls and my pony tail is bouncing around and im seducing idiot boys and they pick me up and carry me around and baby tees and drawstring short shorts and sunglasses and cute boys
“First, no one thinks they’ll be defined by disaster until they are. They can...”
– Lauren Berlant, For Example
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kissing kathy acker
kissing ludwig wittgenstein
kissing ulrike meinhof
kissing susan sontag
kissing colette (a kissing tour of the 20s paris lesbian scene)
kissing jean genet, pulling away and laughing saying “i don’t think i’m your type”
kissing andrea dworkin and feeling judged about it
kissing joan of arc in a fever dream
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The truth is that the scientific way of looking at a fact is not the way to look at it as a miracle. For imagine whatever fact you may, it is not in itself miraculous in the absolute sense of that term. For we see now that we have been using it to describe the experience of wondering at the existence of the world by saying: it is the experience of seeing the world as a miracle.
Now I am tempted...
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6.41 The sense of the world must lie outside the world. In the world everything is as it is, and everything happens as it does happen: in it no value exists—and if it did exist, it would have no value. If there is any value that does have value, it must lie outside the whole sphere of what happens and is the case. For all that happens and is the case is accidental. What makes it non-accidental...
third draft of that sex neg piece is done! wooooo
i’m not posting it til it’s in IRL journal/zine form, but: i tightened it up, clarified, expanded, and backed up hella shit, and ditched the part on accountability processes because horrible anarchyboys took it as a reason to feel justified
look for it in the first issue of Lies (which i guess is the name of the supercool marxist-feminist journal it’s gonna be in)
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one of the versions of ICP's new album is titled...
describing this cover as “fearless” in the promo vid
if you really loved me you would take me to the gathering and then buy me this
camping rules
the eclipse and tripping out about it/crazy crescent shadows ruled
big belt buckles with deer on them from gaycation town flea markets rule
being naked and swimming and covered in mud and hella woo woo with yr not-dude pals rules
the california coast rules
waking up at seven and hiking rules
learning about kickass edible plants and then not feeling so lost and rootless out west...
i need to point out that posting jean amery is definitely not one of the more “cry for help”-y things i post. i just think he has a really challenging and interesting perspective on death/imprisonment/reconciliation (that reminds me of frank wilderson a lot) and i’m defs not equating his pain with my own. his “i” =/= my “i”
“But I am not at all concerned with a justice that in this historical instance...”
– Jean Amery, Resentments
“Death in freedom, at least in principle, can be intellectually detached from...”
– Jean Amery, At the Mind’s Limits
“The crimes of National Socialism had no moral quality for the doer, who always...”
– Jean Amery, Resentments
if anyone so much as says the word “olympia” around me i am going to close my eyes and scream like a banshee until they leave me alone forever. i never lived there. i don’t know anyone from there. i don’t know what any of them did. from january to may 2011 i was in a deep, dreamless sleep.
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this is just me diary-ing/having feelings about sex work and being a fag but i guess i’m posting it anyways
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—i hate sex work. it is ugly. it demands that i perform gender in ways that make me want to die. when i work in sex i drink, isolate myself, and accidentally break glassware so frequently it’s likely intentional and i just black out the memory. it reached a point...
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The Complete Works of Andrea Dworkin in PDF, epub,... →
in case you wanna read her/know where all this is coming from
“There are 3 crucial points here. One, every transsexual has the right to...”
– Andrea Dworkin, Woman Hating (via negationparty)
Well there ya have it. Second-wave rad-scum indeed eh?
(via suzy-x)
i mean also she eventually ended up assisting in the creation of “the transsexual empire” and stopped sticking up for trans women the moment it became inconvenient. so...
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“There are 3 crucial points here. One, every transsexual has the right to...”
– Andrea Dworkin, Woman Hating
im receding from my internet self and turning into this friendly ghost who “likes” things. yaknow, in case anyone thinks i died.
today i went to marin and hiked up a large hill by the ocean. i followed a little path on a scary outcrop and at the end everything was rock and mist and only tiny succulents and a mossy thing were growing. i wanna move to the cali coast and be sappho or maybe one of ana mendieta’s siluetas
Together, we’re two look-a-likes and it feels like you’re the bad side of me, the part I’m not allowed to be, my Hyde. My monster. My boy. In my head I could have your face around all the time, doing things I couldn’t otherwise do. Being cocky, being oblivious. Forgetting. I don’t think about your body because at this point I really don’t know what I’d...
Anonymous asked: Don't you think you're turning Islam into an object to be studied without having any cultural or historical ties to it? It just sounds like a problematic way to score political points.
Anonymous asked: lol.. you're religious? and you're white, and you're a "muslim". wow.
rgr-pop asked: i briefly went to elementary school in linden, michigan after going to school in vegas and before moving back to pontiac. we weren't allowed to celebrate halloween in school and my mom sent in black and orange cupcakes which was a big deal 'cause we were poor and my teacher wouldn't let me give them to the class b/c satan or w/e. it's weird tho 'cause i don't think...
Anonymous asked: what religion do you practice?
Anonymous asked: know any texts dealing with SCUM manifesto's essentialism/transphobia that aren't just like "OMG FUCK VALERIE!!!!"?
